r@ndom scriBbLes

suppose to b muggin..

but can't concentrate..



i've got so much on my mind.

There's my 2 papers soon to b over n done w..i wonder whether there will b laughter or tears when it ends..

There's my brain tellin me i got to think abt further studies..think abt where i wanna go aft this.

There's my heart tellin me i dun hav much time to tink too much..I shud follow my heart..

There's e small voice in head sayin i wishh time didn't have to fly so fast..

There's e feeling that i miss someone a lot but i dunno y..the feelin of being so lonely but i'm nt exactly alone, i know, jus tt i dunno y e feelin..

There's anoth thought tt i'm jus a silly introvert chosin to stay in my cage when the door is actually open wide..

There's my heart feelin v empty. As if a blackhole found itself inside..e sadness e lethargic-ness e confusion frustration ..sense of self lost somewhere..i wonder where e soul has gone..

There's me alr planning wat to do aft 27feb..the fun the club the jobs the interviews the applications the turnouts the results..



then

i ask myself why can't i jus focus on 1 thing for now

but it's impossible..

feel the fear of losing has been growing..

for no reason i've been losin stuff my umbrella, my gloss,simple little things tt i nv lost b4 in my life jus cos i can't recall where when how i lost them..funny thing is i can recall only till e last time i used them, aft tt my brain simply won't continue playin..



wat's wrong w me? short term memory?or.. may b i'm tinkin too much...

may b juz cr@zy..

so to say i'm Cr@zieLass aft all..+_+ *gRrr*

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